Co-dependent

You don't wanna talk.
I don't wanna walk
Away. But, Dar-r-ling,
It's time to
Keep it real.

I know now
All our problems
Were out of my hands.
I shouldn't have to
Earn your attention.

All the worthlessnes
I felt
Wasn't founded
On the truth.
They were
Just lies
Told to make me
More (more)
Dependent on you.

Sure (sure)
I brought (brought)
My own baggage
To this relationship.
Sure (sure)
I thought (thought)
You were
The Best thing
in it.

But it's not healthy
To smile or cry
Based on your whim.
So I'm cutting
The strings
To my addict-tion
For you.
And will try
To not be so
Co-dependent.

Da da da da da...

Co-dependent.

This doesn mean
I don't want you around.
I'm trying to see
What solution
Can be found.
The lies and pain
Swimming inside
My head
Have been drowning me
And making me
Breathless
And light headed.

But I've been getting help
Just these few quick
Breaths of air
Are keeping me alive.
I'm getting back
On my feet.
I'm hoping to keep
Treading water
And learn how to
Survive and thrive.

It would be
Unfair
To point fingers
And claim
There's only you
To blame.
But it is
A shame
That I am so
Addicted.

I need your love.
I'm weak without
You near
And I am
Drowning again.
But I should't
Die
Without you
By my side.

Apparently
It's not
Normal to be
So dependent.

I am learning
it's not healthy
To smile or cry
Based on your whim.
So I'm cutting
The strings
To my addict-tion
For you.
And will try
To not be so
Co-dependent.

Da da da da da...

Co-dependent.

Apparently
It's not
Normal to be
So (so)
Dependent.

I know you
Want me to be
Happy and
Healthy.
And truly
Wouldn't it
Be a relief to
See me
Do things
On my own
Without you
Having to
Tell me that I can.

Apparently
It's not
Normal to be
So (so)
Dependent.

it's not healthy
To smile or cry
Based on your whim.
So I'm cutting
The strings
To my addict-tion
For you.
And will try
To not be so (so)
Co-dependent.

Da da da da da...

Co-dependent...

-- Sent from my Palm Pre

My Acetaminophen!

Everything is
crashing all around me.
The only thing
I can count on is my uncertanty.
Even though our whole
Relationship's a lie,
I'm not ready for goodbyyyye.

You (you) keep (keep)
Making me miserable,
Treat (treat) me (me)
Like I cause nothing
But trouble.
Pe- (peeps) ople say
I should kick you
To the curb.
But the thought is just
Absurrrrrrrrd!

I'm ready to fight!
I feel the light
At the end of the tunnel's
Just around the bend.
Please don't give up!
Show me I'm worth it
To stick around and
Make it all better again.
I can't help but cry.
The pain makes me
Wanna die
And ne-ever-r wake up again.
But I need you
To kiss the pain away
Because
you are
My Acetaminophen!

My Acetaminophen!

I'm just waiting
For relief
To kick in

My Acetaminophen!

Don't make me
Say it again.
*sigh*

Everything you claim
Makes me break more.
These grand extremes
You suggest
Cause an uproar.
Why are you about
To walk out the door?
Can't we just
Try to get better?

Leaving me here
While you go
"fix yourself"
May be for the best
But I don't
Believe it yet.
I'm still in shock.
I just can't talk
To you right now!

But I can't bare to be apart...

I'm ready to fight!
I feel the light
At the end of the tunnel's
Just around the bend.
Please don't give up!
Show me I'm worth it
To stick around and
Make it all better again.
I can't help but cry.
The pain makes me
Wanna die
And ne-ever-r wake up again.
But I need you
To kiss the pain away
Because ('cause)
you are (are)
My Acetaminophen!

My Acetaminophen!

I'm just waiting
For relief
To kick in

My Acetaminophen!

Don't make me
Say it again.
*sigh*

-- Sent from my Palm Pre

Press Release for Michael's work in Australlia!

This is the link to the Press Release for my husband's most recent Klingon Translation project with Jenolan Caves in NSW Australlia! With pictures!

http://bit.ly/a3GbrI

Michael was contacted by Jenolan Caves to translate the script for their most popular cave tour to be translated into Klingon for their Acoustiguide audio tour. He completed the translation a few months ago, and then they invited him and another linguist out to Australlia for an all expenses paid business trip to tour the caves and record the audio! He just got back on Friday. It was a successful trip, and we are very blessed!

Thank you all for your support!

- Dalyn

-- Sent from my Palm Pre

Things not going as well

Things are not going as well as I'd like them to be at this point. As usual, I feel the most mean and miserable when my basic human needs are not met: sleep, eat, breathe, go to the bathroom, live free from assault or injury.... 

. . . I feel wretched when I get so fed up with the constant abuse from my children that I want to run away, and not be a parent anymore. Do all parents feel this way sometimes?

*sigh*

I just need a break from the unrelenting waves of attack. That was why giving birth was so painful: the intense pain I could handle once or twice, but the throws of pain one right after the other without pause or recovery is overwhelming and too much to endure... That is what it's like for me to be home alone with the kids all the time.

Any helpful advice?  :-/

-- Sent from my Palm Pre

"Breathe" Demo - Dalyn K. Roney (audio only)

If that attachment doesn't work, here is my youtube link!

http://youtu.be/MQkbon7erJA

Please listen to my latest song! (audio only) Comments and feedback please!

I often find that I forget to breathe, particularly when I'm emotional. I wrote this song while going through Therapy as an explanation that "I'm in transition in my life, right now is about me not you, and if you want to help you can remind me to just keep breathing."

Go ahead and take a breath. Take a few big deep breaths. Feel better? See! I know, right?

I wrote this last month, but I hadn't posted it because it's so raw and not "perfect". But after deliberation, I decided that it really does capture everything I'm going through (including kids screaming in background) perfectly. Disclaimer noted? Thank you.

Keep breathing.

-- Sent from my Palm Pre